man, theres something to be said about the beauty of journals. you read your ol angsts once they're over and you... learn? naah you laugh and point a finger at that silly person full of silly ideas.

so much for my one post a day resolution. just like all the other ones.... went to shit day one.

ha. but i got into a residency with good people [i hope] and lots of work!

and the thesis finally has a direction [after many many painful hours and days] and .... maybe.... an end in sight.

the rest is the same. the angst and anger still there. maybe buried. not deep enough.