Okay, back to work!! in preparation for my wonderful new creation i've simmered a bunch of ideas but all of the good thoughts seem to bubble up only when i'm half asleep and too lazy to write them down or anything. y(#1) is that? why doea everything seem to be clearer when you're halfway on your way to sleep? Maybe its the horizontal position that helps the brain function better. that sucks... it's kinda uncomfortable to type while lying down! or, maybe, its the silence and the darkness combined - creates this ambience that the brain likes! hmmm.... but i always regret all those wasted thoughts the morning after. i feel so empty when i sit in front of the computer desperately trying to recollect a fraction of the thoughts from the nite before...

oh wait, i remember something!! yeah!! i was looking for a brandon boyd poster for monica last nite and i found this website dedicated to the man, with tons of pictures and poetry written for him and all kinds of drawings and a bunch of other shit.... it made me think of this stalkerish kind of attitude that a lot of people seem to be drawn to. and as a consequence the 'paparazzi profession' (if you can call it that) was gloriously born! y(#2) is there a need for this mad passion for a stranger? in a way you can't even blame these annoying photographers - they are doing their job. the people that 'finance' this job should be put under a microscope and carefully (reaaally carefully!!) analyzed! no, but seriously, what is it? i mean, do you plant yourself by the window and watch every move of your neighbor? 'cause you probably know your neighbor much better than you will ever know that movie star... what are we so attracted by? is it that popularity glamor? is it that 'group effect'? if ten people are looking at that hole in the ground, i should look at it too! maybe it gives people a common subject to talk about - our world is boring enough that all we have left to talk about is what new underware jlo bought today! maybe maybe maybe...

nope, last nite sounded better!

gotta go now!

shalom